A Study in Self Control

A subject that I have probed and examined for much of my life. I used to focus on my lack of self control with food but then I realized that I exercise self control in many areas of my life. I am encouraged. For instance, if I see a really fine looking man that almost makes me drool do I run over and grab him and attempt to drag him to my car? Noooo! That's! self control. If I see something in a store that I would love to own but can't afford, can even visualize it in my house, do I just take it without out paying? Noooo! That's! self control. When I see my ex on rare occasions and he gives me the evil eye Twice! do I walk over and slap the snot outta him? Noooo! That's really! self control. But show me a caramel pecan homemade roll, the synapses in my brain collapse, and you can count on it, that caramel pecan roll is in my mouth. It is so incredibly good but then the synapses try to revive, I'm feeling a little guilt crowding into my thoughts. This is war. Another bite of caramel roll, a big one because I don't know what the result of the war will be. Guilt is taking over so I quickly rip off the rest of the top of that wonderful roll, my teeth humming with the flavor of all those pecans and luscious caramel stuffed into my mouth. Ahhhhhhh! I can now look at the breading part of the roll I've tossed back in the donut box and feel righteous. I didn't eat the whole thing. That's! self control!